one day

one day you'll find yourself listening to those cheesy love songs and all you can think is ME......

a number of people hate me....

and they don't like me,

turns out--

I'M NOT BEAUTIFUL.
but you can't please everybody , right?

People living in their past can't make it to their future.

dunno
but i guess i'm not living with them.
i'm just smart enough to remember all those things.
i regret for those which can be done better, in the first place
but looking on the other side ,
it made me learn.
I've learned, I've experienced ,
and I've surpassed  from all those horrifying situations.
and that is  too far  beyond REGRESSION.
I'm just too powerless not to forget them 'coz I AM STILL HERE!

ion, orchard

that time when i was having fun though...

i had very precious moment!

and so

i'll chronicle each of them in my own time :)

imagination

it turned out to be a beautiful disaster of ideas.
and I usually hate that.
don't know why.
at times, it makes my imagination vivid.
but it eventually brought me to that wild peek of deep thinking - thinking  why it has to be that way. thinking how can i make it into a venom of reality.- sigh.

The consequence

But now I'm sad and alone. I'm going to become bitter and distrustful of people because one person betrayed me. I'm going to hate those who have found their treasure because I never found mine. And I'm going to hold on to what little I have , because I'm too insignificant to conquer the world.

People vs. Book

People say strange things. 

Sometimes it's better to be with somethings who don't say anything. And better still to be alone with one's books. They tell their incredible stories at the time when you want to hear them. But when you're talking to people, they say some things that are so strange that you don't know how to continue the conversation anymore.....

The Money

Sometimes , I'd like to believe that in money there is magic. Whoever has money is never really alone. One can even buy time and everything out of his money.
But I know that it's the vanity of vanities which I don't have but sometimes I'd like to have and wish I could really have.

hoping desperately

that I could find my final answer to that question that I have been aiming for , to be given few more days or few more months from now.
.......I'll cling to that one more idea of mine.......
......................that 'm holding on to ----------i'm hopin' .........desperately!

show me the way......

sometimes I wish that there was nothing to hold me back except myself.
sometimes I felt jealous of the freedom of the wind.
..........I wanted to go as far as I could reach. But that's just too impossible for now. For I have been a companion of responsibilities.
sometimes I think of abandoning those people around me so just I could travel my own journey - and thus, 
..........I can finally find my own Personal Calling. But that's not the way I guess . Or else, they would be hurt and so do I .... (sigh)