show me the way......

sometimes I wish that there was nothing to hold me back except myself.
sometimes I felt jealous of the freedom of the wind.
..........I wanted to go as far as I could reach. But that's just too impossible for now. For I have been a companion of responsibilities.
sometimes I think of abandoning those people around me so just I could travel my own journey - and thus, 
..........I can finally find my own Personal Calling. But that's not the way I guess . Or else, they would be hurt and so do I .... (sigh)